quick update:

Brenna is asleep on my futon; I should be reading the 500 pages of The Secret History I have yet to read; Brenna, Lauren, & me made an awesome movie today :), I actually got an A in calc, but I don't know yet about English...it all depends on ONE essay...aaah; intrasquad swim meet 2nite!  woo hoo!  my team is gonna win, and as of now we are the "Neck Romancers" because Jensen is dumb, not to mention a loser! heehee; it is a lovely day outside; Elizabeth and Maggie have graduated....thats so weird, and it hasnt sunk in for me yet.

quick advice (mostly for myself, sorry):

seize every moment and make them count....that's really cliche.

swim really really really fast.  fast & furious!

be in a good mood and stay positive!  its no fun to be in a bad mood.

be yourself and be crazy and don't care what other ppl think.

okay.  i really need to read now.  adios.

Currently Listening Les Miserables (1987 Original Broadway Cast) By Alain Boublil, Claude-Michel Schonberg, Frances Rufelle, Colm Wilkinson see related

busy week ahead....yay for finals.  wednesday will decide whether or not i am still ranked 1 in my class....and its not lookin good, folks.  but God still loves me, and i'm just doin the best i can.  so, yeah.  intrasquad is this friday, so i'm lookin forward to that! 

i like this song....

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone, I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone, the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.

oh my gosh!!!  i feel so spoiled right now.  i have a brand new car!!!!!!! well, its not brand new, but its a blue 95 grand prix!  and it has a cd player!  and a really nice set of brakes.  i feel so....unworthy of getting a new car.  i feel bad about it, but i am really excited too.  cuz, i mean, the only reason i got it is cuz i was a complete idiot and almost killed Lauren and me.  and now i'm getting rewarded for it.  ugh.  its kind of a nasty feeling.  but i pretty much HAVE to have a car.  well, i'm sure i could do without, but i have to get me and lauren to swim practices.  Josh can help out some, but not always, and mom has to haul Katie around.  my punishment so far is that i can't do too much fun stuff w/ my friends.  and i have to pay for Lauren's new cell phone.  and part of the car.  i think....

oh it's so pretty!!  and i didnt have a cd player in nunnun's car, so i am really excited!  i think 2morrow morning i am gonna listen to either switchfoot or josh gracin...  i definitely never thought i'd get another car. 

is it bad if one person ate a whole carton of whoppers by herself in 2 days?  that's 144 whoppers and 1,520 calories.  wow.  good thing i swim.  well, i am almost finished w/ the carton...but i might stop cuz i'm starting to feel a little sick.

i'm clear.

Currently Listening Get Born By Jet Look What You've Done see related

i guess i'm "grounded" now or sumthin....

hammie did AWESOME at the xc state meet 2day!!  go hamm!  best time AND beat all the south girls!  yay.  i was excited for her.

and i must say i did an awesome job guarding my gate: no problems whatsoever.  in my totally cool large fluorescent tshirt.  man im bored.

the Beatles are the greatest band EVER.  and i LOVE pork.  and man, why are there certain guys that u just can't help liking?  even when u know its basically hopeless.......eerrgg

and i just read this thing about a girl quarterback on her high school team.  thats a little....odd.  kinda cool in a way....but odd.  i love football....but....hmmm.  i dont wanna be a man.  although SOME (3?) ppl seem to think i am.  ahem!  buttfaces.  :)

and i just read bright_city_lights's xanga entry thing and it was beautiful and now i feel like telling everybody that i love them.  i love all my family, all my awesome friends, all my hard core swimmers...thanx for putting up w/ me!  life is too short to waste thinking about stuff instead of actually doing it, so maybe i will do something i was going to do a while ago tomorrow.....i really should.  seize every opportunity cuz it may never come again right?  *lots of love*